i have discovered i am not a great "self-starter" so they say. i like things to be exciting and begun. i was thinking how most of the time my job as a children's minister is sort of just that. exciting and begun. but not always. there are these transitions and beginnings that i have to ignite myself and sometimes the match won't strike and i sit here at a screen and all i can think about it how i really want to be an anthropologist. mark and i are in season 2 of Bones and if you know me, i fall in love a little bit with characters. this one surprisingly is not the lead, hot guy "Booth" but the nerdy guy who loves dirt, "Hodges", i am not struck like i was/am with House and Keifer. But i am looking forward to when his turn to be onscreen comes around. i really want to research crime scenes and of course it all rolls back around to me wanting to be a detective...

can you miss your calling this badly? and there really is no way to combine my true calling to this fantasy. that just wouldn't be good now would it?

i also would like to dance like those kids on "so you think you can dance" but i am letting that one go. if i am calling the contestants "those kids" i am probably too old for that dream...

one of my favorite moments this summer was when the little girls in my cabin at camp did our skit. i loved seeing that come together- i felt that swelling up of pride. i am not sure if anyone in the audience including adults understood the skit, but those girls did. for those of you who care we did Michael Buble's "Everything" with the words being about a little girl and her first love, Jesus. They dance. It was a true moment for me. I will post some pictures and the lyrics.

------------------- Michael Buble's Everything-------now be thinking about Jesus!

You're a falling star, You're the get away car.
You're the line in the sand when I go too far.
You're the swimming pool, on an August day.
And you're the perfect thing to say.

And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute.
Ah, When you smile at me you know exactly what you do.
Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true.
Cause you can see it when I look at you.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

You're a carousel, you're a wishing well,
And you light me up, when you ring my bell.
You're a mystery, you're from outer space,
You're every minute of my everyday.

(now Jesus speaks)
And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man,
And I get to kiss you baby just because I can.
Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through,
And you know that's what our love can do.

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.

So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La
So, La, La, La, La, La, La, La

[Chorus:]
And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times
It's you, it's you, You make me sing.
You're every line, you're every word, you're everything.
You're every song, and I sing along.
'Cause you're my everything.
Yeah, yeah


If you have made it to here, you deserve to know i am such a sucker for drama and to add to that I don't have a little 5 year old red headed shadow with me everywhere and my mind is rolling all the time about what can i do next. i know i need to strike that match and get my next trimester in place. i wish i could do it like they do in the movies and sing and twirl around to catch the suspected prospects for the winter term. Or maybe i could find clues that led me to the right people...pray God will make this part exciting for me :)