here lately my tears are right on the edge. i almost don't want to share this because i know what will happen. i will sit here at my laptop and sob and waste a good night by myself. i know there are more things i could be worked up about that could possibly be more justified of the emotions but tonight i don't care. let me just take a minute to tell you what's going on in my mind. sit tight...
sadie sharpened her pencils tonight. every single one of them. her purple pencil case that she sooo wanted is now full of super sharp number two's. why am i sobbing? her kindermat is folded and had already been laid on while she watched tv, played "littlest petshop" and did prayer time. she knows what she wants to wear on the first day of school and she's (her words) going to be happy with whoever she gets...(mrs. adcock or mrs. mills- and she says mrs. mills instead of summer now)
i actually caught her playing "eny, meny, miny, moe" with her small collection of paint brushes. she couldn't see that her new watercolor set had one in it already. my throat choked up as i opened it for her and she said "oh, i thought i needed one and i didn't know which one to pick." the yellow one had won and now she had two brushes because that made sense to her.
we obviously shopped for school supplies today and she was so precious. surprisingly she didn't want everything she saw but she was so grown up. so willing to wait while we picked out rileys protractor and gates magnetic locker pencil holder. she loved everything purple and chose wisely on her lunchbox. she now has her cute little name on everything all stacked up and ready to go
for one week from today
(she got that from her daddy)
i am crazy about her. pray for me and my soon to be empty house.
7 comments:
aw, you suck...i started crying while reading this!
i started to say a bunch of what i thought were encouraging things, but then i just decided to say it's ok to be sad. and sad. and sad. and then one day around february, it goes away. :)
she's awesome - and you are doing a wonderful job raising her. remember, that's our jobs, to raise them to leave us.
much easier to type than to do!
She is really beautiful and just seems (from reading your blog) like she is an incredibly amazing little girl. I can imagine that it is a really sad time. I don't even want to think about that time for Cooper. Hang in there!!
Gena, I teared up reading your blog!! I dont want to think about that day for me. Sadie is such a great kid, she will do GREAT in kindergarten.
very sweet post! i know you'll miss her, but like krista said, this is what you're raising her to do. now you get to share her with other people so we/they can get to know what a wonderful little girl you've brought into the world. love you.
Jeez-a-lou, Geen. I'm right there with you. I will be thinking about you next week. Our big day is August 18, but Reagan will only be going half a day, still.
Oh Gena, reading these kinds of things is hard for me. As a kindergarten teacher, I forget that it's so hard for the parents. I'll know soon enough! I wish that I could have her and love her for you everyday! I don't know what I'm going to do without my Julianna....:)
That's one good thing about homeschooling. But I also get stuck with them when I want to send them to school because they are being stinkers! :)
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