"We could sing Cotten Eyed Joe"
...a suggestion Sadie made in her Wed. night Bible class
Thanks to Amy R. for sharing the fun things they say.
Prayer Request: i am back to the "get over myself" place i need to apparently stay in...
one day at a time, one foot in front of the other, one task, one meeting, one morning i will wake up and not have a whole lot to do-right? and wish for just some of this back on my plate. ..?
i get so overwhelmed with what i need to do- pray i will check my attitude out and get all these things done with a cheerful heart. Didn't M Blueberry say a thankful heart is a cheerful one? Where is she?
Riley went to bed crying saying he's going to miss me tomorrow. what do you say to your child when all you want to do is cry and say -i'll miss you too... in a huge way. Is it ok to say i think i have the most awesome kids ever? I love to hang out with them and tomorrow and the next however many months they are busy...i am sad. and sadly busy too.
is this how it's supposed to be?
...a suggestion Sadie made in her Wed. night Bible class
Thanks to Amy R. for sharing the fun things they say.
Prayer Request: i am back to the "get over myself" place i need to apparently stay in...one day at a time, one foot in front of the other, one task, one meeting, one morning i will wake up and not have a whole lot to do-right? and wish for just some of this back on my plate. ..?
i get so overwhelmed with what i need to do- pray i will check my attitude out and get all these things done with a cheerful heart. Didn't M Blueberry say a thankful heart is a cheerful one? Where is she?
Riley went to bed crying saying he's going to miss me tomorrow. what do you say to your child when all you want to do is cry and say -i'll miss you too... in a huge way. Is it ok to say i think i have the most awesome kids ever? I love to hang out with them and tomorrow and the next however many months they are busy...i am sad. and sadly busy too.
is this how it's supposed to be?
7 comments:
Seems that you are a contemplative trapped in a busy-body's body. From what you write, one could assume that you get your energy and satisfaction from contemplative life and creating within that sphere. Yet you seem to get bogged down in stuff that pulls you away from that place.
I guess this is what I was bloging about re: the spiritual gifts model that sugguest that if you are busy doing things (even if they are needed minstry) that drain you instead of energize you, you probably aren't engaged where your gifts and passions intersect.
Are the so many things you need to do chosen areas in which you work or are they family/friendship things or are you talking about things you want to do in relation to your walk with God?
Bc
after my rompt thru the dictionary i realize yes, i am a contemplative person- but how can you just always sit around and contemplate? unless you write songs for a living, you just really can't can you :)?
the "so many" things are the busywork part of my job...the part in which i am not talented or gifted. But are a necessary part. The relational part is where my gifts lie and when i am in that element i feel it. its then when i know i am where i am supposed to be. But when i tuck in my son who wants to be with me all the time, and i him (slight exaggeration)- i question it all. I want to go off to a deserted island and let God do his thing with the necessaries and live like the Robinsons in a tree. Not to be extreme but i would soooo love that. Or something similar, more modern like.
Actually, writing songs for a living involves, at least for me, very little contemplation. It's more forensic and craft. Otter Creek actually has a minister of contemplative life (that's not his title) and apparently it has more to do wih lifestyle choices and different ways of communicating and interacting with other people than sitting and around reading and mumbling or something:) It's very pro-active and intentional. It also doesn't imply reclusivness but instead involves alot of listening..I think.
Anyway, it's a whole thing apparently. Has more to do with vocation and less to do with occupation. Do you find yourself fullfilled by your job? (The church one)
bc
yes i met a minister once a couple of years ago who did just that. She helped people find their spiritual gifts and showed them how they can be used most effectively. a job in and of itself since we don't tend to truly listen very well.
and your question for me is tough...yes, yes and yes when i am in the trenches so to speak. with the kids and teens. when i am planning wigglers i tend to hit snags in my intrest level. is it possible that is just the way it is? i couldn't possibly be happy with every aspect could i? i feel like i may have been complaining a bit too much. but i do dread the busy work of a minister. shouldn't i just be cheerful and thankful? are you saying i may be in the wrong ministry?
To answer your question in your blog: I think Madame Blueberry is at "The Stuff Mart". Sometimes we have to quit shopping for more stuff to commit to and sell some of the stuff we have that prevent us from doing our best work. It's all about balance and Quality vs. Quantity. Does that make any sense? I'm always wanting to do everything. It's hard to say no but we have to realize that we don't stay physically, mentally, or spiritually healthy if we are stretched too thin. You have such a big job and do SO well at it from what I see. You just need some assistance getting things done. You'll enjoy what you do more and feel like you're using your talents to actually make a difference rather than just feeling like you're running around ragging like a chicken with its head cut off! I love you bunches!
Hey-
Sorry I was sitting around contemplating for a couple of days (translation=I had to work)
No, I'm not saying you're in the wrong ministry.
I wish the concept of ownership was more prevailent in our community of faith so that delegation was possible for you. Not that there aren't people who are willing to work, but the more we could shuffle responsiblities that drain us the better the whole body would be, I think. Paid ministers just get stuck with most everything...that's the way our paradigm works in this culture..Doesn't make it right though.
Anyway, just remember that it's Ok and good and right and Christ-like (and Mary-like) to turn your back on busy to spend time with the not.
peace to you girl-
bc
i should say thanks to everybody who has given me wisdom- not only blogged wisdom but emails and conversations. i am working on getting something started to lift some of the busy-work so i can be more attentive in other places.
i keep thinking about what tressa said...that childlike mentality is even recommended by our maker- i may be trying to complicate things when its all very simple (back to my first post on all this)
i am ready to just live at His feet. Go slow, be wise-
i think i struggle with "transitioning" more than i like to think. i want to be all laid back and pretend that the changes i have just been thru (friends/minister partner leaving, kids starting school)aren't going to effect me much but i feel the void all around. adjusting makes me sort of...mad...? not sure if that's the right word, sad too- i miss those guys, all of them.
well, enough of the therapy. lets work on someone else now how about it?
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