thank you.

hey friends.

i really don't know who reads anymore...i used to keep track of it with the handy sitemeter and then decided i cared too much about that and let my tracking system go. isn't it silly the things we "get all in to"? but today i must say i am thankful for you. my friends. it seems like the reality of thanksgiving rolled around a little slow for me this year but after my last post i have felt your friendship and also not so alone in my confessions. i get why God said to be there for each other. i think i am an extreme person, or can be at times. i had decided in my mind i was depending on friends too much... and i was, sorry to those who know who you are. and so instead of being wise and discerning... i shut up completely. not wise.
we need each other.

amy, i love you and how you know me and all my stuff and love me anyway. you listen like no other and i feel safe in you. God uses you with me all too often. thank you for always pointing me to Him. i pray that everyone could have a friend like amy. i love her exactly for who she is and for what God is doing with her. and amy i can't wait to see what He has in store for you-He's here and more is coming!

Psalms 16:13
And these God-chosen lives all around— what splendid friends they make!

and just a little something i forgot and had to relearn recently...
keep it light.
i think i may have started this blog asking for all you to pray for me to keep it light and now i plan to leave this blog asking all of you to remind me to keep it light. you have been fun for me- an outlet i needed. now off to something different for now. much love to all of you.

dry lands and Luke

i have been in somewhat of a spiritual dry lands lately. uninspired and very passive about too many things. not a good place to be. but God showed me something noteworthy the last two nights i tucked the kids in bed...

i wasn't in the mood at all to be spiritual much less teach. i didn't even feel worthy of reading to them considering the day i had. but God had mercy. he sent me to a scripture that lets just say "broke me" my cold heart warmed up just a bit...

the next night, after a day of going from ok to bad to worse again i sat with the kids ready or i should say not ready for another night of reading and prayer. i chose what i thought was something safe...the gospels. i knew the lessons Jesus taught too well. He wasn't going to break me tonight...i was just going to read and get on with my again cold heart. but God had something better in mind. He took me to Luke 11. i began thinking Jesus is teaching the guys about prayer, safe enough... i know about prayer, right?

so now again i sit crying, realizing two nights in a row God has been trying to get my attention while i have been determined with my sour, displaced attitude. i heard Him with so much force i had hope. it sounds a little silly but when you are in a bad place, hope makes you laugh. you could care less because your faith in thin. surely you have been here.

so i tried what this scripture suggests and i prayed. not the way i had been. the one's i had been offering were so emotionless and lacked spirit and heart. this prayer was my first prayer of faith -of true faith in days. i was direct with God, not wistful. and today i have this confession and vision again. i am coming out from the covers and more thankful than i have been all thru the past week of -dare i admit, thanksgiving.

i want to encourage anybody who is reading that may be in the dry lands to keep on reading the words from Jesus below. don't give up. don't underestimate God. just ask.
Luke 11...the message.

Ask for What You Need

1 One day he was praying in a certain place. When he finished, one of his disciples said, "Master, teach us to pray just as John taught his disciples." 2-4So he said, "When you pray, say,

Father,
Reveal who you are.
Set the world right.
Keep us alive with three square meals.
Keep us forgiven with you and forgiving others.
Keep us safe from ourselves and the Devil."

5-6Then he said, "Imagine what would happen if you went to a friend in the middle of the night and said, 'Friend, lend me three loaves of bread. An old friend traveling through just showed up, and I don't have a thing on hand.'

7"The friend answers from his bed, 'Don't bother me. The door's locked; my children are all down for the night; I can't get up to give you anything.'

8"But let me tell you, even if he won't get up because he's a friend, if you stand your ground, knocking and waking all the neighbors, he'll finally get up and get you whatever you need.

9"Here's what I'm saying:

Ask and you'll get;
Seek and you'll find;
Knock and the door will open.

10-13"Don't bargain with God. Be direct. Ask for what you need. This is not a cat-and-mouse, hide-and-seek game we're in. If your little boy asks for a serving of fish, do you scare him with a live snake on his plate? If your little girl asks for an egg, do you trick her with a spider? As bad as you are, you wouldn't think of such a thing—you're at least decent to your own children. And don't you think the Father who conceived you in love will give the Holy Spirit when you ask him?"

hey everybody.
does anybody ever get tired of themself?
i think i am tired of me, i am getting on my own nerves.
i have no funny story-
nothing clever to write-
nothing is pressing me
and i am mad about my secondary spiritual gift (hospitality!?!)
so much that all this adds up to the fact i am tired of being me.
i usually like who i am, not in a huge kind of way and i kNoW i have lots of personality flaws but today all i see if the parts of me that i dislike. like how i felt when i put on that sea green shirt under my brown short sleeved shirt and thought it was cute.
and it wasn't. a decision i made after i got home that day...

i am not needing a pep talk either. what anyone else thinks about me doesn't matter. it's my opinion i am concerned about.

please someone admit they feel my pain and have been here.
and please someone tell me that hospitality doesn't mean fru-fru, tea cakes and fake smiles.
is that really me?! no, don't tell me. ok tell me.

mario, puppy and luigi

i wash their clothes
i comb their hair
i make their lunch
i make socks pair

i hold their hands
i read them stories
i teach them God
and all His glory

i make their hands
form church to steeple
i watch their minds
grow into people

i listen dutifully
to many complaints
i guide their minds
using some restraints

i see their smile
i hear their laugh
i see the joy
You put in my path

i ground
i spank
i fight
i thank

our God in heaven
for these joys
coming from my girl
and two crazy boys

Hahaha

can you watch this without laughing?

my latest compromise

bathtime has been challenging. our latest two fits of rage have been around this event. i lured my sugar loving baby in the tub with none other than a spoon of marshmellow cream tonight. she could not have been more willing and happy to oblidge...

some may think this isn't too bright. we could go in circles about bribing and sugar and, and, and....but i have a (fairly) calm, clean child right now. and i am loving that.

Click Here for recent pictures of the killen kids.

please know that because i am posting this, i am NOT in any way taking this lightly- as some of you know, sadie has given way to what we southerners call "fits"...and i am at a loss. i have tried every emotion with her (anger, being calm, ignoring, spanking, time-out) and analyzed every thing on the way up to the fit (tired, hungry, been around the boys too much, my moods) there seems to be no common denominator except she demands attention pretty much all the time and she may be giving it her best shot with these tantrums. i just don't know what to do when it happens. i feel helpless and ignorant and like a very bad parent.

i know this isn't healthy for any of us. i am crazy, sad and feeling left like i am not good at my purpose. i love her and am soooo crazy about her but lately she is just driving me crazy.

please pray for my parenting, my sanity and Sadie...

All i want for Christmas

all i want for Christmas...

click the above video and listen while you read. there's nothing like a little holiday music to get you in the mood. i know Christmas is about giving but we all have something we want right? something we keep saying, "Well, i'll just wait till Christmas for that"

so what is it?
list your top two...

mine are:
a music card and a charger for my phone
i-tunes bucks

the movie "step up" just might be next because i just rolled in from seeing it and am still on a high-i LoVeD it.
i think i am going to ditch aerobics and seriously consider a dance routine.
you think Cross Point would have a dance class? you never know...

P.E. Program

amy...
this is my son's teacher watching with diligence the Mars Hill PE program.
is she not the best????
thank you amy for teaching gates and being an amazing friend and example.

PE Program...You may or may not be interested in hearing about what i consider one of the cutest things MH elementary puts out thanks to our own Coach Denise. I will spare you the details of how cute my kids were and focus on yours. Chandler, Danna, Eric and Olivia, Abby and Hannah, Annsley and Ann Marie, Macy Wallace and Wright and about 50 other Cross Point kids were in there looking as awesome as ever, shaking their stuff to the beat.
I had one of those smiles that made my face hurt. One of those moments you thank God for-

my insi(RED) moment

i know a few of you know about "My Upmost for His Highest"- oswald chambers. he is a spiritually deep writer and i am blessed to have a link to him on my "to do" page that i check in on everyday.

i have to share today's thoughts. it -took a load off- so to say. one of those things that make you feel lighter, less burdened and less in control. a fantastic feeling. if you want to read the whole thing in context link to Heartlight.org


"We are taken up with active work while people all round are ripe to harvest, and we do not reap one of them, but waste our Lord's time in over-energized activities. Suppose the crisis comes in your father's life, in your brother's life, are you there as a labourer to reap the harvest for Jesus Christ? "Oh, but I have a special work to do!" No Christian has a special work to do. A Christian is called to be Jesus Christ's own, one who is not above his Master, one who does not dictate to Jesus Christ what he intends to do. Our Lord calls to no special work: He calls to Himself. "Pray ye therefore the Lord of the harvest," and He will engineer circumstances and thrust you out.

i think i am left feeling like this
"what the crap have i been trying to do here?!?!"

God has me. Praise God. So do any of you ever feel like you are trying to find your place, your purpose?

This says chill out. Live like Him -for Him -and because of Him.

Maybe that should be the question instead of finding our purpose is finding our reason.

I'm sorry. You all have probably discovered this on day 4 or 5 of your spiritual journey, i am just having an ah-ha moment about something that is obvious...ever have those days?
Forgive me if i randomly post 1 Cor. 13 again. i am inspi(RED).

what i hate is...

i am setting here at 10:52 on a thursday night questioning myself and how i spend my free time -as i was drying my hair tonight i realized that drying my hair was the single thing i hate to do the most. second is applying mascara. ironically God gave me curly hair that i seem to think must be dryed straight in order to be presentable and red eyelashes...

blogging is funny. it's just out there, talking with everyone but you never know who exactly and why they read or what intrests them- i know that pictures of hair dryers and hearing about how i hate to get ready can't possibly be worthy of any one person's time. why do we do this??
can i just solict comments here... i want to know what of your every day stuff that you have to do -do you HaTe to do? (i don't feel like rewording that)

fall break! "Lost" and OpRaH

(i have to share this picture that makes me laugh out loud. sadie has on those crazy google eye glasses and wanted to be in this picture with the lovely Dalton and Olivia but just couldn't commit.)

i woke up this morning and all of my children are playing together. not fighting and even helping each other. life seemed a little surreal. i laid in bed listening. i didn't think about what all i had to do this morning or how quickly i needed to get breakfast ready and kids out the door...i just listened. it was beautiful.

i then got up and greeted them for the day and made myself a large glass of my best sweet tea and turned on some oprah. she was talking with a woman that "snapped" , got in her car and drove 90 mph to the nearest bridge and jumped. obviously, unsuccesful because O was interviewing her. she went on to write a book "why i jumped". i have so many questions about this...so she wants to end her life and couldn't even do that right and comes out of depression (which is GriPpInG) and writes a book and gets on the Oprah show. God is so big is all i know. and it helped that she had footage of her attempt.

today i leave at 3 pm for zoe. last minute decision but i feel God lead. please pray for sadie especially, we were up some last night with her coughing. while your praying please also lift the student ministries. Pray i can be a better, more focused leader- with the spiritual developement of our kids as the vision...this is going to be my focus this weekend.

and i can't post without mentioning "Lost". last night mark, wes, erin and myself were literally on the edge of our seats sharing in the excitement of season three, episode one. i felt a little like i was awaiting something much bigger than the coming of sawyer, kate and jack. it was a little convicting... i am sorry for my over zelous addiction. but however somewhat satisfied with what few questions that were answered. i just needed a little more sayid...

Free Hugs Campaign (music by sick puppies)

The Supreme Excellency of Love

Blowers's Daughter...Damien Rice

Oh, Mama (Funny)

what i need to be doing instead of blogging all these videos

meChurch

sounds nice...

but do you LoVe...?

i know you may not have the same reaction as i did when i read this familiar chapter but it hit me hard.
its asking us where our heart is.
of course you have read it and of course from the message but God spoke to me in a way i had to put it here and showcase this beauty of His.


1 If I speak with human eloquence and angelic ecstasy but don't love, I'm nothing but the creaking of a rusty gate.

2If I speak God's Word with power, revealing all his mysteries and making everything plain as day, and if I have faith that says to a mountain, "Jump," and it jumps, but I don't love, I'm nothing.

3-7If I give everything I own to the poor and even go to the stake to be burned as a martyr, but I don't love, I've gotten nowhere. So, no matter what I say, what I believe, and what I do, I'm bankrupt without love.

Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn't want what it doesn't have.
Love doesn't strut,
Doesn't have a swelled head,
Doesn't force itself on others,
Isn't always "me first,"
Doesn't fly off the handle,
Doesn't keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn't revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.

8-10Love never dies. Inspired speech will be over some day; praying in tongues will end; understanding will reach its limit. We know only a portion of the truth, and what we say about God is always incomplete. But when the Complete arrives, our incompletes will be canceled.

12We don't yet see things clearly. We're squinting in a fog, peering through a mist. But it won't be long before the weather clears and the sun shines bright! We'll see it all then, see it all as clearly as God sees us, knowing him directly just as he knows us!..(this makes me so anxious to see Him)

13But for right now, until that completeness, we have three things to do to lead us toward that consummation:

Trust steadily in God,

hope unswervingly,

love extravagantly.

And the best of the three is love.

SaDiE

sadie was four yesterday and i started the day staring at her while she slept. there she was with her messy hair, laying sideways with her whole life in front of her.

four years ago she was put on my chest, screaming her little red self out. she was mine. my little girl, my new friend. i just didn't deserve that. and yet God thought he'd give me and her a whirl and here we are four years later and looking around i think she and i are doing ok...if i could just teach her how to sit like a lady...

for her birthday, she was slathered with beads, combs, nail polish, clips, floam, sand, clothes, work-out videos and all the things that make sadie's world go round. and i am crazy about her and all her girl stuff.

update...

as of yesterday-

"...and i let go and off he went..."

he got it! riley rocks ;)

Held

Natalie Grant

mY fEaTuReD fRiEnD

amanda brewer: (sorry no picture available)
lucky me got to spend some time with amanda lately- here's what i came up with:

a...she tries to be the best mother she was made to be. she seems to get Ps. 127: "Children are a blessing and a gift from the LORD." because she lives that way. my favorite thing about her.

2-she loves to laugh: i rarely see her without a smile. she seems happy because she is and she tells her face.

tres: she knows she worries and she tries not to: ShE OvErCoMeS- so she stays real to me but she gets past her fears or tries her best to-

d) she is full of compassion (my close to first second favorite thing)- she has a heart full of helping and giving and loving-(prob. why she makes for a good mom.)

5; she casts very little judgement- thru her trials she has learned better. and she is just who she is and doesn't put who she thinks she should be on others either. pure in heart.

kudos to amanda. i think you are da bomb. ;)

riley's ride

here's todays big new for me. riley announces his parents haven't taught him to ride a bike. being the conformist and now embarrised parent i am -i get myself outside and make him learn on his cousins purple flower bike. he loves this already...

have you met riley? if not, he has the drama of a jr. high girl tucked away in which he pulls out whenever he is tired, hurt or frustrated. with all three in play we were well on our way to disaster.

he peddled as i ran beside him, flip flops and all in this crazy awkward position- i would try to cushion each fall by holding on to any part of his person. finally i decided to do the tough love thing and let him fall so he wouldn't be so afraid to fall. the cute little purple handle bar goes right into his personal parts that i don't understand...
more drama-
finally i am chanting peddle, peddle over and over and am able to let go and just hold the seat...
after more crashes and more drama i wish this story ended in "and i let go and off he went..."

but not so. i am sore. he is bruised and i will pray for better luck tomorrow. the awesome thing about riley is that he is still good to go. this didn't bruise his ego or pride in the slightest. he went in, drank a sprite and was ready for his next adventure which i think included organizing his playstation games- hmmm....

maybe these pics will show you a little bit of our adventure. he liked to take "breaks" -see above picture mule gazing.

my featured friend...

people impress me.

i like to consider their strengths that stand out -especially the ones that i am weak in or just want to be like- i think i might make "my featured friend" a blogging habit. a fresh word about yourself goes a long way and we need to build each other up!mY feAtUrEd FrIeNd... Shannan Bridges

5 qualities that make her like HIM to me:

*her mind is on her Maker... Her latest discovery of how to improve herself or her mindset in order to be more like Him is always what brings light in her eyes. my favorite thing about her.

*she loves to laugh. she is all about a good time. she somehow can pull this off without speaking bad about one person. a rarity. my close second favorite thing about her.

*she does what she believes. she doesn't talk about how she should or when would be a good time to start. she just goes for it.

*she can cook like nobody's business. have you seen her in action? have you seen a pampered chef show by shannan? it's entertainment.

*she lives lightly. she doesn't take life too seriously. she can get serious and be there and live in a serious way...but she has learned the fine art of enjoying life.

of course i could go on... shannan i love you! i love your family and your sister and i miss you and your spirit at cross point.

i know we all aren't perfect, i am not holding her up there with God.
i just think i should look around more often and see the good stuff.

grasshoppers and getting older

i woke up yesterday morning in pain. every muscle made me feel twice my age. i was swollen- and my hair...even though i tried, just didn't happen- (i know its fried, i wish my friends would just say something already) -my face was gross. i had some crazy combination skin going on like i am 14. after squeezing into my pants i was officially depressed with my appearance.

the day continued on with many mishaps of forgetfullness. i forgot a lunch date, i left a flyer in the printer at home in which i had made for someone i had promised to have to Wed...(it was Friday) i forgot completely to work at school (it was my day) i also couldn't remember words. conversations with me were a joke. WoRdS!...simple ones like "grill" and "ms smith" even our dogs name. i am not hungover or taking anything besides my vitamins that ironically are supposed to be bringing clarity...

however-i managed to have fun last night. amy b and i celebrated jana h birthday with shannan. Big surprise at carrabba's, a little cold stone creamery, add some target and we had people telling us we were having too much fun.
funny how a day can be flipt...

on the way home a grasshopper lasted from madison to my driveway
holding on to amy's hood...
perseverance-
now if a grasshopper can make it with 70 mile an hour winds, i think i might can get up with a smile on today and maybe -just maybe- i can trust that it won't matter so much what i look like, how i feel or even what i can remember- except that God is good and i am thankful...and hope for more laughter thru it all...

I Corinthians 13:7

Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

Pregnancy in 15 seconds

take a load off Gina...
you are in my prayers.
love you!

i read this to the kids tonight: amazing verses for just daily living-

Galations 6: msg.

1-3 Live creatively, friends. If someone falls into sin, forgivingly restore him, saving your critical comments for yourself. You might be needing forgiveness before the day's out. Stoop down and reach out to those who are oppressed. Share their burdens, and so complete Christ's law. If you think you are too good for that, you are badly deceived.

4-5Make a careful exploration of who you are and the work you have been given, and then sink yourself into that. Don't be impressed with yourself. Don't compare yourself with others. Each of you must take responsibility for doing the creative best you can with your own life.

6Be very sure now, you who have been trained to a self-sufficient maturity, that you enter into a generous common life with those who have trained you, sharing all the good things that you have and experience.

i love "live creatively friends" leave it to eugene...
and that part about saving our critical comments to ourselves...wow.
and the part "if you think you are too good for that (sharing burdens) you are sorely deceived". PoW! (can you tell which parts fell on my ears just right?)

Pray for Gina- she's having LiAm soon, very soon. Maybe NoW!

my three redheads

Kym and Holly, here are my crazies as i lovingly refer to them...now i need some shots of your babes girls. Mine are the ones with red hair and goggles mostly. (Sadie is a goggle freak.)
(click on "my crazies" for more pictures)

the fire...

last night i worked diligently on the application and still am no where near finished. thank you for the responses- i am somehow brought to a little better understanding of what to put by what you guys are willing to say about me...
i think you were all being nice and i figure all of you had at least 3 grumpy adjectives you could have shared. i really wish you would have, it looks as if i was calling everyone to build me up and that this a.race app. was a big front. i may be that insecure however that was not my intentions.
sooo...this week has been very much a walk thru the fire for me. i can't really explain other than a series of unfortunate events. i am proud to say God is working in me. my attitude has been on a rollar coaster and my heart on my sleeve but i am working on being more even and presentable.
today i am hanging on this verse: 1 peter 1:7

Your faith will be like gold that has been tested in a fire. And these trials will prove that your faith is worth much more than gold that can be destroyed. They will show that you will be given praise and honor and glory when Jesus Christ returns.

and this song:

The pathway is broken
And the signs are unclear
And I dont know the reason why you brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do
I will go through the valley
If You want me to

Now I'm not who I was
When I took my first step
And I'm clinging to the promise
You're not through with me yet
So if all of these trials bring me closer to You
I will go through the fire
If You want me to

It may not be the way I would have chosen
When you lead me through a world that's not my own
But You never said it would be easy
You only said I'll never go alone

So when the whole world turns against me
And I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering Your love put You through
And I will go through the valley
If You want me to

i want this kind of spirit.

and holly i am working on posting some pics of the kids...

questions for you...

so i am on my bi-yearly "i have to run the Amazing Race" kick- the good news is, this time i have gotten my application BeFoRe they quit taking them...season 10- i know this is bizarre and just silly to some buy i really want to run this thing.
seriously. i need your prayers. HoWeVeR...there are some tough questions i am not sure of and who better to ask than my friends, right?

i am not trying to lose friends here but i would like your complete honesty. I am a big girl. If the answer is too much and you can't comment here, let me know somewhere when no one is "listening" (apparently i am expecting the worse from you guys)
so Shannan, Cortnie, Trina- you guys who read and never say anything, its time. i need your voice. this is important information that you are offering.
ok -enough drama...here's what i need the answers for-

1..."What famous person reminds you of yourself?"

2..."List 3 adjectives that best describe yourself"

(i have no idea on the first one and the second i am wierded out about describing myself)

now i need to know how YoU would answer these questions:

3..."Are there any locations in the world to which you absolutely will not travel?" if so identify where and why
4..."What part of the world is the least interesting to you and why?"

(these are hard for me to answer because i just don't know enough about the "world" to know if there is a place i don't want t0 go, other than the places we are in war with..)

ThAnK YoU for your time.

So it's Saturday, the kids are classically watching cartoons and sporatically eating. I am checking email and blogs. We are about to go swimming i think, well after i do something productive so i won't feel useless...i just ran into a blog from Krista's, "Kelly"-a woman from 7 mile who loves Zoe and pictures and God. Where's Trina? :)

It just made me think about how awesome it would be if we could befriend our fellowship. Kanisha J. and i had a funny conversation about how in the coc we tend to seclude ourselves and murmer and complain about EaCh OtHeR...silly. She grew up under a different "umbrella" of beliefs and you guys know her light-hearted nature, she laughs at us. I have to laugh or i'll cry.

I wish things were different. I like to sit around and think-it's not me who has so much trouble with this, it's the other churches...but its me too. I am used to our style of everything, i am looking forward to changes...ok, enough-

It just all circles back around to my attitude. I want the right one, the attitude that sees the big picture and see's us all at a place of learning and figuring out. Not one person is up here because of this and down here because of that. AHHHH! Please pray for mine. God is AlWaYs working on it.

So let's worship tomorrow. Think about GOD. His nature, His power. How He delivers and rescues and disciplines all rolled into One. He rocks. Clear your head. Clear your mind of all the junk that makes you critical and gross. I know i will have to- now I can't wait...

cell from hell

has everyone seen the phone i have been carrying around? it's cracked, we heard about that and now the little "pad" on the back has fallen off, slowly, leaving a sticky mess on my hands-
so i have been doing a little research and discovered this really cool phone that i am now craving...chocolate- today i found out it can Be MiNe...for a fraction of the retail price (heard that promise before?)
The cell phone world makes me laugh- you can actually get PaId to own their phones when you do the rebate thing- so hopefully on Monday (some contract has to run out) i can own me some chocolate. (and maybe by Christmas i can save up the $ to buy the gadgets that make it super cool)

LG KG800 Chocolate video 1

everybody loves chocolate

Holy

1 Peter 1:13

Be alert and think straight. Put all your hope in how kind God will be to you when Jesus Christ appears.
14Behave like obedient children. Don't let your lives be controlled by your desires, as they used to be.

15Always live as God's holy people should, because God is the one who chose you, and he is holy. 16That's why the Scriptures say,
"I am the holy God, and you must be holy too."

-a group of us went to Athens last night to worship with the Zoe group. How sad is it that i craved, hungered for this worship? Assuming to myself i would do this any given Saturday night if given the opportunity. Why is that not an option? This is God we are talking about here.

...you know i am a fan of entertainment and my recent rompt thru Ecc. has only confirmed me more that it's ok to live a life that we enjoy and i soo enjoy a good movie (and a little JD)- but if i could be doing what i did Sat. night...it just made sense to me. I live for Him, i try to at least- it's natural to express my love for Him. Can we do something about our (my) complacency about worship?!

Scrubs My Way Home 5x07 Part 1/3

my vbs inspiration

scrubs

the song i can't find!

Turk: Who are these guys?

J.D.: These are the last eight guys in the hospital that don't realize I suck at basketball. So here's what gonna happen: I finally mastered my running hook shot so when we go to pick teams I'm gonna hit that shot. Then you say I'll pick that guy at which point Carla is gonna page me and I'll say "*Crap*, I've gotta go." And you'll go "*D***, we just lost the best player out here." And then there will be eight guys in the hospital who think I'm good at sports and word will spread.
Turk: When do you find time to see your patients?
J.D.: Between these thoughts.

If you haven't caught Scrubs yet you should. It rocks. There's always some great message at the end of the show- the writing is awesome. JD is a real person to me. I love him. His mind is always in some other world, planning, scheming, dreaming but he is brilliant at what he does...maybe that's just tv...but i think it can be done-
come on...be shallow, watch tv and enjoy scrubs...it's okay
i read ecc. the other night. all of it b/c i kept thinking "is Solomon really suggesting this"

Read this: Ecc. 2:24
The best you can do with your life is have a good time and get by the best you can. The way I see it, that's it—divine fate. Whether we feast or fast, it's up to God. (msg.) from context click here

b'ham babes

i so happened to have just a minute this morning and to answer your question amy f...ms idol had a blast, but i might have to give that title to amy b- she has plenty of pics, one of taylor hicks in which i hope makes the blog cut... taylor...- he just has that thing that makes you want to know him and then you feel like you do even when you don't-i found this pic of him and a guitar...ahhhhhhhh! A nice surprise was Lisa singing Elton's "your song" and chris, elliot, ace and bucky singing "Patience", a song i had forgotten about. Awesome words.

i had so much fun with my girls amy, trina, bridgett, meredith, shannan, scarlett and cortney b. but i must say the concert on the way home was worth as much to me as the $60 a.i. one...being serenaded by our praise team, singing, laughing- it will be one of my best memories from the trip. i love you guys! OK, gotta get going- today i meet "Ray Renoylds"woo hoo :)

cotten eyed joe

"We could sing Cotten Eyed Joe"
...a suggestion Sadie made in her Wed. night Bible class
Thanks to Amy R. for sharing the fun things they say. Prayer Request: i am back to the "get over myself" place i need to apparently stay in...
one day at a time, one foot in front of the other, one task, one meeting, one morning i will wake up and not have a whole lot to do-right? and wish for just some of this back on my plate. ..?

i get so overwhelmed with what i need to do- pray i will check my attitude out and get all these things done with a cheerful heart. Didn't M Blueberry say a thankful heart is a cheerful one? Where is she?

Riley went to bed crying saying he's going to miss me tomorrow. what do you say to your child when all you want to do is cry and say -i'll miss you too... in a huge way. Is it ok to say i think i have the most awesome kids ever? I love to hang out with them and tomorrow and the next however many months they are busy...i am sad. and sadly busy too.

is this how it's supposed to be?

Rest Assured...?

my latest discovery is that i am thinking i can be a better person by simply being more simple.
i think...

oh my word, i can hardly admit this but...mom...has always said, "slow down gena", and bigger still the Lord has always said "be still gena, know i have you"

and still i keep going like the energizer bunny, except for this week...nothing.
everyday its been get up,
shave my legs (maybe),
put on a hat
and go sit by my in-laws pool.
and be still.
and swim some because my kids make fun of me and gracious it's 100 degrees...

i have so much gain from this stillness. ..

-my new close friend, my sister in-law in which we have sadly never taken this much quality time together.

-my kids are great swimmers and they are digging their cousins. that's good for the fam.

-i am more at peace than i have been in soooo long. i am not sure that's from the pool or the stillness. i am betting the stillness. God is good. i am not worthy.

-lastly, lets not forget my vanity...my tan. it's not much seeing as i am freckely and all but there is sadly some peace coming from it. ahh, still working on that.

i will soooo miss my stillness.
just tonight we had orientation and i see i have my work cut out for me. here we go...
i do better when i have more to do...i have always worked that way.
i have accomplished little in my stillness but i have gotten closer to God than i have been in some time.
- PrIcEleSs...now what to do?
Pull-up the bootstraps and get moving and be the room mom, student minister, mother of 3 i chose to be or StoP................and sit and think and pray and consider this lifestyle one more time...
i need wisdom.
seriously.
what are your opinions on this picking back up the pace?
healthy? unhealthy?

consider these verses before you decide:

1. The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still." Ex. 14:14
2. Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways. Ps. 37:7a
3. James 3:1...Not many of you should presume to be teachers, my brothers, because you know that we who teach will be judged more strictly.

4. James 2:18But someone will say, "You have faith; I have deeds."
   Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by what I do. 20You foolish man, do you want evidence that faith without deeds is useless?

Does anyone see what is going on in my head?
be still,
be better at what you do,
be still,
do something worthwhile...show your faith...ahhhh!

i am not confused. i am needing balance.
i am just at a loss where that balance is supposed to stay for me.

(and amy's, i can't get that crazy im to work, so you will know. maybe it has something to do with all this...?)

a tribute to the Shepherds...
they left out this morning for their 24 hour journey to
Austrailia
to set up home indefinately.
you will be missed. from our family to yours...

tune: Yellow Brick Road, Elton John
When are you gonna come down?
When are you going to land?
should we have paid you more?
should we listen to the Big Man?

You know you can hold Crosspoint forever
They would have signed up with you-
Now you're a present for Austrailia to open
America's left singing the blues

So goodbye our Shepherd friends
Where is the plane right now?
You can plant us in your memory
We're going back to our house...

Back to the walls and floors made of wood
Hunting the games you left us
Oh I've finally decided just take them all...
the aussies made such a fuss

What are you doing right now?
Has Rebecca shot down the plane?
It'll take you a couple of vodka and tonics
To set you on your feet again

Maybe you'll get a replacement
There's few like them to be found
we'll miss you like crazy our best friends
let us know when your planes on the ground

gena's world this past week:

1- teenage girls! we had an "in town mission project" slathered with self indulgences. we prayed and had pedicures, we watched "she's the man" and "girls just wanna have fun" (i was in heaven) we had a small dance party in my kitchen to the tune of "cotten eyed joe"...we made canvas gift bags full of treats for icu patients and snack mixes for our new visitors at cpcc. we delivered everything to ecm and we were filled. an awesome event. there's nothing like 16 teenage girls, one college and your best friend hanging out together...it was righteous

2-from 16 teen girls to 5 and 7 year old girls (karen's, my neices) -another movie, this time "the wild" i think that may have been the third time i paid money to see that...i can't think about that... i have refereed fights this go around, peeled fruit and given baths. a different kind of spend the night party indeed but fun none the less.

3-today i am going to pontoon with my parents. the river and wind, a couple of my favorite combinations and this time i just go...refreshing.

4-i bought some herb/vitamins i plan to start taking. it is supposed to reduce stress along with a string of other promises. i will report if this is worth the efforts..$20 for 1 month. i am doubtful.

5-God's hand has been present.
i came home from mexico a week ago today. already real life has tainted my fresh spirit. Please pray for me to have that fresh wind again, more specifically to FOCUS. He is sooo amazing so i know it can't be that hard. Pray for me that i can see His hand in those times that i really can't see much, much less His work in all this. i have had a few of those moments this week, where all i see is the hopeless, human part. Satan is mean to us when we try, i get that...and when we are already weak he wins. i just don't plan on him winning.

James 1:12 God will bless you, if you don't give up when your faith is being tested. He will reward you with a glorious life, just as he rewards everyone who loves him.

my uncle ronnie...
i was reaching in my desk drawer in my office today to discover an email address...baron33@ something i can't remember. i knew that baron33...so familiar. my mystery blogger. and then it sank in...my uncle ronnie!
i even remember now why it's baron33. the story behind it i mean. i am sorry u. ron!
so i then re-read all your comments with these new eyes. i am always filled by how much we are alike. i get you-
and this lovely realization came on a rather gloomy day for me. it's like hearing your favorite song on the radio right after a string of bad ones and commercials.
God is good...
i think about you often. i miss you. i can't believe i didn't make the connection sooner.
i wrote this a while back...i think of you when i read it-
you are the writer and guitar player i long to be. i love you!
(some may notice i wrote this as i poured over the wizard...)

holding my guitar
holding my pen
ready for words
as i travel within

my few chords i know
with my limited words
hold candles to shape
and my voice goes unheard

i sence You are listening
waiting
in beautiful hope
to form me
to mold me
to watch me let go

bringing inspiration
to the writer
a brush to the paint
an artist is blessed
by His infinate grace

as i sit here my words
come from the heart
of my soul
it isn't my story
He wants to be told

i pray for wisdom
i pray for release
for my weary old self
wants a canvas for me

i pray for knowledge
the story is Yours
my craft is to share
in a way to allure

i pray for courage
to give You the pen
to give You the glory
as i travel within

hello friends! mexico was amazing- i was challenged in ways i wasn't expecting. i can't really pass on words that describe the change in my heart- the faces of the people... the communication that was obviously beyond verbal. i made friends with a culture. it is beautiful to me how God can rip a barrier away in an instant and instead create a bond that feels like to me will be in my heart despite the barriers placed again by distance. i spent a lot of time with the kids, surprised? i am in love. and not only with our hispanic kids but our 10 kids from our youth group that went with thier families. serving the lord together bonds souls...forever in a way you can't understand until you do so in a determined kind of way. i would love to share all my great stories- but i doubt your intrest would last. i pray He can just keep this feeling alive. the feeling that i want to make a difference. it's spiritual motivation... i needed that. life goes on the same here but now i have something in my heart pressing me. i am not sure what that means or where that will lead me but i don't plan to deny it.

keep a guy named "adrian" in your prayers that he will build a relationship with God. one particular person that i hated to leave because i felt the seed wasn't quite planted. i hope i am wrong.

thanks for the prayers while we were gone.

and this picture in the only one i have from mexico...my camera battery went out, ahem...but aren't we so cute? i like to call it 316 ;)...if you look closely you can see a small portion of a mexican statue.
see trina for one of the 650 some odd pictures of our experience...trina-get a blog already.
i'm out-

i want to muster a genuine thanks to my friends for helping with and praying for vbs...the wizard was wonderful- it was a work of many and i can't really relay the contentment i feel about the whole thing. it's over. bittersweet. now my mind is on my kids and mexico. tomorrow is their day. i have felt a little less than a professional mom of late and now i am leaving for what i see as an obscene amount of time...please pray for my peace of mind- and for hearts in mexico to get ready. for God to cultivate. i am not leaving my babies for stoney ground. i know God gets that but this is big to me. i want this trip covered in prayers. my attitude is a little weak right now so i know i need a fresh take on this trip. this summer is a rollar coaster for me...
i found this verse the other day and i keep going back to it

Proverbs 3:5-11: msg
Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
don't try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God's voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
he's the one who will keep you on track.
Don't assume that you know it all.
Run to God! Run from evil!
Your body will glow with health,
your very bones will vibrate with life!
Honor God with everything you own;
give him the first and the best.
Your barns will burst,
your wine vats will brim over.

God is good. Don't you just love Him? I know my thoughts are random and scattered- again, it's been up and down for me lately. Thanks for your prayers, please let me know any specifics for your families.

Prayer Request

i know everyone who reads my blog loves God and talks to Him often, a hopeful assumption. can you please lift me up this week to be clear minded, focused and not forget my reason i do the things i do. the wizard will begin in the morning...i want God to be glorified- bottem line- and i want kids to know Him. so pray for that and throw in a good word for Gates self esteem. thank you.

never cut your
child's hair when
you are in a hurry
and mad at the same
time...
Gates just left crying because he looks like the girl in this picture- i am sure that will be the last haircut i am allowed- i just grew weary of the scraggles and thought i'd trim the top a bit...i hope he will forgive me and when you see him...please try to muster a genuine..."That Looks Great Man" be sure to tack on "man" because he's having trouble with the fact he looks like a girl. because he sort of does-

God is Good

Ps. 8:3...I often think of the heavens your hands have made, and of the moon and stars you put in place.

i have been focusing intently on the big picture lately and i think i may be onto something...
life seems easier when i get that this just isn't it- thank you God!
it's a wonderful feeling really to actually get that there is nothing here better than His salvation. i am living more freely- but i must say i have to remind myself to think this way often.

why is that?

you would think something that brought such peace would be easier or more natural, not so-
but i am determined practice makes perfect in this situation, or close at least.
we are just here for minute...it's just a blink really and then we will be with HIM and get it all, understand, see HIM, His face and feel His arms around me. i get so giddy. but He keeps me here with purpose. and i get that purpose so i am ok with waiting.
and until i get to be with Him i just try my best to obey and please, forgive and trust and above all love in ways i don't understand everyday.

i am truly getting that being thankful helps...read jim manchester's blog or i should say look at it. Look up...God is amazing. i am afraid i don't thank Him enough for his creative touch- that which i am most impressed.

so vbs and mexico are up next for me, please pray for spiritual success.
i am anxious, excited but trying to think eternally- hard combination with all that's on my mind.
amy- i miss y0u- holly, what are your summer plans, i need to visit ;) amy f.- lunch?

for those who may not know, we made a 4 hour stint in the er last night with my sweet little sadie, our first experience with stiches.
she did amazingly well, me not so much.
she simply ran into a wall, the corner of it i mean and pop- i had to sit down while everyone else comforted her- i felt so helpless but i couldn't stand. it was gross and i felt so bad for her all rolled into one. some mom i am... i pulled it together with the help of God and got over myself- 3 little stiches on her cute little head. and they didn't even have to shave her hair, yeah!
maybe i will post a pic of her. she looks cool. thanks to valerie chowning who came to the er (i think she feared i wouldn't make it:) and the shepherds for taking the boys, i think...where are they?

Happy 4th!

i need an unforgetable verse on, how do i put this-...staying close to God thru the blah's,
the "i don't feel so desperate for You" today kind of attitude
BECAUSE i know i am-(desperate)

ok, get busy for me- i need someone to hold my arms ;)

Ghost of the Bayou

not to sound perverted but-i touched this last night...and yes, it's real-

He was being held by Mandy our Zoo Snooze leader. She's Joe Manchester and Meg Ryan's love child. I was a little more scared of her than the gator. One of those people you really want to like you and you end up saying something dumb in front of and figure they think you're an idiot and then you avoid the rest of the many times you are around them...

OK, enough of my insecurities. I had a fabulous time. Seriously. We camped under the stars to the sound of monkeys-

I had two "unforgetable's":

One, Riley made my heart get that feeling like i can't get anymore happy when he wanted to hold my hand the entire length of the zoo last night because he just wanted me near. I miss that just being a given with my boys.
Second, the ride home with just the girls in the van. James Blunt's "beautiful" and Anna Nalik's "2 am" blaring from my speakers with the windows down. I think heaven will involve wind. I am so filled by wind and sound. Thank you God for a surprisingly amazing time. I am blessed and am anxious to walk with these kids as they grow up in the youth group.

This is a visual of my life right now... but in a good way- the person in the above truck is alive and the tree doesn't get sucked up. The roof can be mended, see, it's just a tear.

i came across an ever so popular scripture tonight. but i was reading it to the kids therefore it's in true message form-hold on and let me find it...
ok, so i found it and i really don't want to share it. Not that you, wouldn't benefit but it's just too personal. God and i are keeping that one.

How about last nights from Phil...3:15-16?

"So let's keep focused on that goal, those of us who want everything God has for us. If any of you have something else in mind, something less than total commitment, God will clear your blurred vision—you'll see it yet! Now that we're on the right track, let's stay on it."

(last night it fell just right so much that i cried and the kids were so confused, today i may be a little confused by my reaction too)

my emotions are ramped...

God's been doing this to me, showing me these great verses, thanks for the prayers brought on by my sad little picture of a half full glass of water, always the optimist... ;) Amy, thank you.
I felt it.

I am getting filled during this potentially empty time of busy-ness. (do you know if you drop the y and change it to i busy-ness becomes business?) i didn't until right now.

Holly, what job are you praying for? Nashville's my vote too!

water

In my heart, I am thirsty for you, the living God.

When will I see your face? ...Ps. 42:2 Then I lift my hands in prayer,
because my soul is a desert, thirsty for water from you...Ps. 143:6

Do you ever crave God, want a moment from Him so desperately? You can't get filled fast enough with scriptures, stories or dialogue of Him or with Him?

top 5 little wierd things that bring me peace

5. the bed, how it looks -right after you have changed the sheets then made it. it's just so crisp.

4. the sink, empty with the little hand towel beside it and steam coming out of the dishwasher because it's all about to be clean...

3. hot, folded white towels on my dryer- decidedly very cool to me.

2. in the van: my purse, sunglasses, lip-gloss, cell and c.d. case within arms reach. ahh...

1. gum. a fresh pack of orbit. original flavor, or maybe new wintermint. surprise me.

what's on your top 5 little wierd list?
please note: these aren't things that necessarily bring you happiness, it's peace we're going for.
Come on...why do we read each others bloggs anyway?

Only God gives inward peace, and I depend on him....Ps. 62:5

do you think that these little things that bring us peace, instead of being wierd -are just little gifts from God in our otherwise not so peace filled worlds?

vomit boy and extinction

can i just whine a second here-

riley's sick, throwing up practically all night so between trips to the bathroom to hold hair back, gateraide and cleaning up after my oh so dramitic sick child i have been sort of surfing the web for cool pictures of red headed people.
I will spare you why.
- and i found this site for redheads (the official site for redheads, who knew?!) and i found out that we are going to be EXTINCT in just a few years! (well next century)...maybe!?!
-and that the gene is dominant and skips generations usually and- and -and, well it just made me feel unique is all. and my kids...
but i want to whine because i had this cool little blogg all ready and something stupid happened to my computer that i am sure i did not do, ...anyway, all you get is this boring, ugly paragraph that has no cute clip art or statistics on redheads - i know you are all crushed. except you probably didn't make it this far-
I may be writing a lot the next couple of days if we all get this stinking virus.
oh, and i think my man David had red hair. More reasons for me to connect to this man.
I think i am going to go read some Ps. SoMetHiNg a little more productive than this.

do you ever feel like the more your around your kids, the more you want to be around your kids...
or is it the oppposite?
and if you are away from them for a while you almost have to reteach yourself your role?

i think my kids are so fun...(well today they were, parts of yesterday and most of last week) i am with them 24/7 right now, and i like it!
but i am a little worried about my week long stay in Mexico this summer-
missing them for one, but the whole getting myself back in the groove scares me a little-
i am afraid i won't like them when i get back
crazy, you think i'd be anxious to get back and i will be but not what i fear will await.
is that wrong, selfish or normal?
and "worry" isn't the word, it's like i don't want to miss out,
letting go of control stinks no matter why you are doing it.
then coming back to the rules being different for a while and sort of starting over in some ways. yuck. makes me just say, "forget you little mexico" but God said "go", so here i go...well, in a few weeks
again, please pray for me-and them and the little kids i can't wait to meet-

see, she needs me too...

the lake house...
i am fascinated with this movie.

do you ever just want to be so creative and all you can think about is like canteloupe or some song your kids listen to on the computer...
...blank...nothing...

i was working on the wizard again tonight and my mind was in gear. i was thinking of red shoes and tornado swirls, jello hearts and then i hit a wall...fruit...and the tune of "magical trevor". I had to stop and leave a little ? question mark sign on my otherwise finished work. agh.

what is that?

please allow me to try and connect you to my child's brain that leaves me stumped

http///www.weebls-stuff.com/toons/magical+trevor/

and after actually browsing this weebls stuff i might just be officially done with magical trevor- much to the boys dismay. It links to "south park"! Pray for my parenting please...no kidding.
but doesn't that tune stay with you?

can anyone guess?

ok, this is pretty hard for me but i think i may be vain.
i think i know i am. i am a little too worried about my tan, my hair and my weight.

am i alone here?

i really don't think i am. honestly, i think i am among many who suffer from such meaningless worries. "Health" i like to call it.
"I just want to be healthy".
and i do, seriously. but come on...i have to be real here. i'm not counting out my celery sticks and measuring my granola intake- i am checking my muscle tones and tan lines.
now i am not one of these that take forever getting ready because i can't escape the pull of the mirror or go vomit a meal. it's not like that with me- i just think some of my confidence may be coming from the product of my Maker instead of my Maker...ridiculous- and i am guilty of doing this with other things too...of course i am... and i know better. Satan is sneaky.

again- pray for me- i want to be healthy for God. i am His house sort of. it's that simple.
and please talk to me people!
is anyone else willing to go here with me? this vulnerable topic?
i don't think i am shallow, so i won't be putting that on you. or just let me know how you are not vain so i can be just like you :) think about it.

Proverbs 31:30
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised.

i threw my phone today in the floorboard of my van and broke the screen.
confession is good for the soul...?
i let anger build up- how do you just not let it in at all?
someone let me know-

into the unknown

God knew what he was doing when he kept heaven a mystery...I know our minds really aren't able to get it and there aren't words we would understand but the mystery factor...it holds a lot in it for some of us. I am unusually excited about the unknown of my future. And even if He takes me nowhere, which i doubt- I am so anxious about that mystery of after this life. Not in a deathly way, in a healthy way.
joy? yes - mystery, yes!
Who reads a Higgins-Clark book to find out on p. 74 who the kidnapper was? or plays clue after we find it's Ms. Peacock, with the rope in the kitchen? What's a good fundraiser without an anonymous donation?
Have you seen "Break-Up" yet? i am dying here. But a real mystery keeps us going, keeps us talking, keeps us excited. I love that so much of God is mysterious- His face for one.
Wes Hall rocked this morning at the supper...I want to crave God for God, not what He gives me. I hope my mystery minded self isn't getting in the way of that- Keep praying that i can get over myself, my self absorbtion to be more clear. GoD and OtHeRs- my goal.
And baron33- keep it real, keep it a mystery, we may listen better.

ok, i know adding links to your pages comes so easy to you guys but i have worked so hard and now here it is...amy, meredith and krista. You are among the chosen few...
krista, what's up with your blog? did i do that?
good night people---tomorrow, audio!

HeY,
as i get over myself and learn to listen better AND pray for wisdom everyday of my life, Satan is tough on me...ever feel the pains of one step forward and two back?
That live lightly one gets me everytime.
And that sounds like the most fun doesn't it?!
Frustrated.
Pray for me friends.

sinless not flawless

I have really pondered the whole Jesus and no mistakes thing. I went as far to obsess i am afraid. I think i figured something out- Jesus had to have miscut something along the way.

I was determined the other night to not make a mistake while i painted...anyone who knows me, just might know i am not the most precise person. But i tried my very best to only paint white where white was intended. In my determination i guess you can guess. Of course i slathered my "lucky leprechan" laudry with it. I wanted to be perfect but i am human. So human.

That very day i had also slid on some water on the floor and almost fell. In front of a lot of kids that laughed...Human. I also ran into a doorknob and knocked my already old person back out of line...Human. ( i know this is bordering clutz, but not my point...bear with me.)

My lack of grace doesn't call for his grace. It just reminds me i am not God. And His grace covers the times i ChOoSe to not act like Him. I don't know, maybe Jesus didn't miscut or need an outlet. I know he needed rest. He rocked didn't He? He would go to rest and be interupted and NOT get angry. I so want to be like Him. Oh, and pray for me, i am so sore today ;)

Then Jesus said, "Let's go to a place where we can be alone and get some rest." They left in a boat for a place where they could be alone. But many people saw them leave and figured out where they were going. So people from every town ran on ahead and got there first.

When Jesus got out of the boat, he saw the large crowd that was like sheep without a shepherd. He felt sorry for the people and started teaching them many things.

OUTLET?

First, thanks for encouraging me to write again. I LOVE to write and usually just wait on my weekly faithwriters topic and now, thanks to AmY...i think i am getting into this except if i blog during the day i have to be "Ms. Mandula" and Sadie tells me things to say like "time to get your colors out" or "time to write your name"...i think we're playing "school" but i am not sure.
I have been thinking about what exactly my "outlet" is...just now i mean. I haven't really thought i had one but i think i may...except that it's a lot of things. I love music and am queen of mix's and so i recently put a spin on my intrest and picked up the guitar-and now it's kind of like Kenny Rogers said, "she's waiting for me like a secret friend" in the corner over there and i just keep looking at it thinking how cool it would be if i could really play-you know something that has more than the 3 chords i know.
...Do you think Jesus had an outlet? What about carpentry? I can see how crafting furniture or even houses would be mind consuming, which is why we enjoy outlets, right? or do we because we are talented? Maybe both - But did HE need that? Something else to think about? or have the finished product of a "talent" to give him a sence of pride? He's JESUS. What do you think? I am not going to say yet, i want to hear from you first.